August Serenade

It’s going to be 5^th August soon. Wonder if this year it’s going to be something to be remembered or it will passes on like the other 5^th August. My memory from childhood had been mild; there’s nothing I could really clearly remember. The only 5^th August I remember is from year 2000. I was 10 and I had this little party with two of my closest friends. I remembered we had noodle which Mum cooked for the day. I had a little fun I guess. No cakes though. We played in the playground and it was quite brief. Nevertheless, it was probably the best birthday ever. Since then on, I don’t remember any other celebrations. It is quite sad for me actually especially when while the other members of the family got a little eat out on their birthdays, mine was always forgotten. More important things would just pop out; road tax to be renewed, and last year I was going to college after 3 days, etc. etc. Mostly my 5^th August would be really unpleasant, getting into argument with my mum, and I still remember some of the 5^th August I would say “Happy Birthday Me” in tears of sadness, under the blanket. Wishes from your friends doesn’t really count that much since maybe they got all their friends’ birthdays on Facebook notifications anyways.

This year I want to get all out and just celebrate my birthday with myself. I want to buy a cheese cake and eat it all by myself. I want to buy some new clothes and books! And a pair of boots! and maybe a Les Paul! I’m tired of straining myself and putting others in front of me. I want to walk without worrying about others. I want to be selfish. I want to be free. And maybe I want to have such birthdays for 3, 4 or 5 years to come. I just want to be alone. If bonding is something that would hurt as deep as the bond, then I would rather spend my life on my own. I’ll be happy in my own way.

Then again, every day I listen to Suga Shikao’s August Serenade. I hope my August will be august this year.

Chiisana Jinsei: Japanese Songs Chord

Chiisana Jinsei: Japanese Songs Chord: "I found these sites with chords on Japanese song. Of course, the site is in Japanese but if you use Google Chrome, it won't be much of a tro..."

Japanese Songs Chord

I found these sites with chords on Japanese song. Of course, the site is in Japanese but if you use Google Chrome, it won't be much of a trouble.

xxxsound

Guitarlist.net

Japan Total Music

Feel free to ask me questions! =)

Please Stop The Time For Me

Anyone? I'm being left behind.

Could you please bring me back to the time I've lost?

Stupid illness! Stupid internet!

Why do I have to get sick now? Now everything taste like crap!! T^T And why is the net here when I have lotsa things to read? Go away I need to study if you're around I won't be able to resist myself for getting online!!!

I'm sick.

Sometimes I got the feelings that I am sick in the head... Very ill! XDD

Oh well, everyone got that mental side. I'm a human too i guess.. lol

How are you doing?

I found the book I've been looking for. The Neverending Story. I'm reading it little by little.. Saving it up for the holiday. But then I realized I still have The Hobbits & Brisingr to read! Ah well, might as well read them all up or save them for the boring time~

Life has been a pretty mess lately.. *sigh* I could say that during this half of year I didn't really accomplish anything. It was pretty dumb..

Some people are getting on my nerves. True friends are hard to find. They are so far away they could only offer you written words and you read them but it's even more fulfilling than having to listen to those voices you don't really wanna hear.. >_>

I'm totally broke. I spent a lot this semester I feel like killing myself.. T^T

I've lost my fun-side. Now I could only write sad, murky dark poems.. isk..

Now I have 4 older brothers and 2 little sis! XD

Okay enough crap!